Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Freedom to Fail

Yeah yeah yeah. It's been a while since I blogged. Half a year or whatever. I haven't been in the writing groove for that long. I'm still not in the writing groove, but Brandon got on my case earlier today about "my fans" missing my writing.

So I'm writing.

I'm all getting ready to graduate and I'm sick of people telling me what to do. Why is it that grown ups are all two-faced? They're always saying "Reach for your dreams!" "You can be anything!" and "Go for it!" but then they turn around and kick you in the teeth with "You want to be an actress? Do something practical!"

Practical? What the heck does that mean? Is ANYTHING practical? If I have drive, shouldn't I be able to make anything work?

I'm not one of those "stick it to the man" sort of people who does things just to spite "the man." I don't rage against the machine. I'm not a non-conformist.

I'm just different.

I understand that being an actress isn't for everyone, but being a desk jockey isn't for me. I want to live a fulfilling life! Two things make me feel full to the brim with meaning and they're teaching little kids and acting. But of the two, I feel most accomplished before, during, and after a performance. I feel so alive!

Not many people get to feel that. It makes me sad to think so many people go through their lives without that wonderful emotion.

I'M NOT GOING TO BE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE.

I'm not going to let other people tell me what to do. I respect your opinion, but let me fail. Freedom isn't just about the freedom to succeed. It's about the freedom to fail, too.

4 comments:

Brooke said...

Good points. I have to say though, I thought I knew what I wanted in high school too- but I found that what I thought I could never enjoy- teaching at an elementary school- was actually my element and I enjoy that much more than I could teaching at a high school, etc. So although you LOVE acting and singing and all that jazz, you might also love something more than that even- you just haven't experienced it before. This coming from someone who got one of those "impractical" majors. But let's be honest getting a college degree is what is crucial here- so maybe get it in acting, but just always try to be open to what your other passions and loves in life are- so you don't miss out on something even better. You rock- and I do know you'll be successful at what you do. (I think people also say that about acting not being practical because you can be incredibly amazing- but not the right type cast for the part, and so you don't get the parts. That's the frustrating and nonpractical part of it. And some people spend 10 years or more trying to get on Broadway. That's a LONG time to go for something- other people are doctors in that amount of time.) O.k. this is long enough- I hope I wasn't another give you advice type person. Just a here are my two cents you can throw out the window person. You rock though, did I already say that?

Becky said...

Good for you. Do what makes you happy.

Occhi di Notte said...

Whilw I was reading your words I thought to a scene of " The Spirit". have you seen this film?
If no I would suggest to do it.
"i don't want to remain in this shit of pleace. I want to be someone!" said the actress.

*Inspire566* said...

Very well said :)